Time for a change

I had a realisation this morning.... when ever I get down or depressed it’s because I have these rosy expectations on life that life never seems to live up to. I expect that everything will just turn out ok in the end, I believe that there will always be someone there to bail me out, or help me up off of my feet. I think that surely there must be someone out there who will lift me back up, and that life will continue on happily ever after. I place these expectations upon my friends, my family, some fantasy girl that will love me unconditionally. Mostly I place these expectations upon God, or reality as I know it.

I have since come to realise, that it is these expectations that lead me astray in the first place. Life will not get better unless I force it to. Unless I grab the rope and pull myself out of the pit no one else will. There is no happy ending unless we make it. God does not have a plan for my life except what I take from life by force. Other people can not be there for me because they are too caught up and mixed up in there own life, and there own problems. They, like me, are too self absorbed to see beyond the shadows of there own forest. Perhaps maybe we might be able to fight life side by side, if we find each other on the battlefield, but I can never fight your fight for you, and you can never my fight enemies for me. Life is a path we must always take on our own. Along the way, yes we may find those who can show us an easier path, or those who can help us in our times of need, but we can never come to rely upon them, for they have there own battles to fight, and there own trails to blaze. In your time of need, there is never any guarantee that someone will be there to help you. So then you, or we, are better of to become strong on our own, and take help when it presents itself, but to never ever expect it to come along, and to never wait for it. For when you waste your time waiting for it, is when it will never come.

If you succeed at life, you may have only luck to thank, and perhaps the help of others, but you will owe no one anything, because it is not they who made the path for you. They were to busy trying to make a path for themselves. Even if your success was a mixture of luck and the help of others, you can take comfort of the fact, that while you may not deserve it, that no one else really deserves it either. And if you fail at your endeavours, you can take comfort in the fact that you did not spend your entire journey sitting along the path waiting for life to pick you up and carry you to the finish line. Strive for what you want, fight for what you believe in, because no one else will do it for you.