why i stopped going to church

they seem more concerned with:
programs than people
numbers than spiritual growth
rules than principles
doctrine than theology

i went to church and i felt like people were more concerned with the worship set, and having a good sermon, and with putting on a good show than in going out and helping people. Other than a head count they didn't seem concerned whether i or any other individuals showed up or not. No one seemed to care whether people were sick, or unhappy, or not doing well.

maybe i'm a hypocrite cause the only thing i've done for others is to get a sponsor child.
But I didn't feel like by going to church I could change anything for the better.
I felt like a nameless face in a crowd of lost souls.

set sails for brighter shores

i started this blog, because i wanted a more adventurous veiw on things.
the truth is, the one thing i really want to do in life is go on adventures.
i don't want to grow up, i don't want to take responsibility, i just want to go on having one fun adventure after another. The only problem is, that i don't really know how.
I sorta skipped that phase of childhood and went straight into adulthood.
alwasy worrying about bills and other worldly things and about the future, and will things work out. I've never been on any grand adventures, and the adventures i have been on have always been marred by the naggin responsibility in the back of my head. You have bills to pay, you have to get a job, you have do this, and that, and the other thing. You need to finish school. YOu need to pay off your student loans. If you dont' do it now you never will.

ALL THOSE STUPID VOICES IN MY HEAD MUST GO!

I want to goto the carribean and hunt for pirate treasure.
I want to goto racing school, and drive the fastest cars in the world.
I want to travel to europe to visit some old friends,
and to other places to meet some friends i've made online.

Now if only money (or lack there of) wasn't the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate thing, to tie me to responsability. to tie me to my crappy job.