stupid bloody blog!

stupid revealing lists.

1o Firsts:
1) First Girlfriend: mandy simpson
2) First Best Friend: ryan moslin
3)First screen name: don't remember first email was froggy_zen
4) First Kiss: mandy simpson ( i was 17~!)
5) First Piercings: tragus, left
6) First Car: lincoln
7) First Love: anne first major crush anyways... true love, still looking :)
8) First stuffed animal: care bear, well i had a couple others i don't remember which came first
9) First tried a cigarette: don't remember
10) First failed class: NiC - Political Science 102

9 Lasts:
1) Last Cigarette: Grade 9, last cigar: ... november
2) Last alcoholic beverage: beer last week
3) Last car ride: home from church this morn
4) Last Kiss: september
5) Last Phone Call: mr.ritco
6) Last CD played: ryan adams... surprisingly enough, no not bryan adams... RYAN
7) Last Bubble Bath: don't know
8) Last time you cried: when i watched jerry mcguire
9) Last "I love you" - do moms count? cause if not then never. or does it mean last time I said it? then that would be august i think.

8 have you ever:
1) Dated one of your best friends: no, well maybe, sorta, i guess, not sure.
2) Have you ever skinny dipped: no
3) Have you ever been on TV: no
4) Have you ever kissed someone and regretted it: Yes
5) have you ever had a weird dream about someone you knew: Yes
6) Have you ever fallen in love: i think so, not sure
7) Have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
8) Have you ever been depressed: yes

7 Places you've been:
1) Ireland
2) India
3) England
4) Mexico
5) Disney land
6) France, twice
7) the netherlands

6 Things you've done today:
1) answered the phone
2) read 'the hobbit'
3) played guitar
4) went to church.... yawn.
5) fell asleep on my face
6) this list

5 favourite things in no order:
1) i think it would be, love and being loved in return.
2) friends
3) kissing
4) going too fast... cars, motorbikes, anything
5) cuddles

4 Things You want To Do Before You Die:
1) get married to someone who loves me almost as much as i love them
2) fly a plane
3) race a real race car
4) be happy and live my life to the fullest :)

3 Things You Will Do Tommorow
1) work
2) gym
3) internet


2 Things you want to be (that your not now)
1) Funny
2) Exciting

1 Thing you are now
1) bored

i'm feeling pretty bummed lately about my student loans, i should probably feel good about it because last month i finally paid off my student line of credit ($5500) for about a total of $6000 dollars i've paid off this year since I graduted. Which is what bums me out. If its taken me almost a year to pay of 6 grand, then that means i'll be paying off student loans for another 7 years. I'm depressed because the thought of working my ass of and having absolutely nothing to show for it, other than dumping a bunch of money at the bank.... is a really depressing thought. I've worked really hard this year and i feel like i should have something to show for it, either a trip oversea's or a motorbike or a new car or something. I've worked hard! but instead what do I have.... i owe 42 grand instead of 48... whooopie. I hate student loans... I HATE THEM!!! I should be investing in RRSP's and saving up for a house, i should be able to buy my toys, not work and work and work and have nothing to show for it. *sigh* its my own fault of course... but it still sucks ass.