i guess i wanna tell you all about my summer and whats going on, or more appropriately what isnt' going on.

I had a pretty ok summer. I worked weekends all summer and steadily developed a passionate dislike for my job, but i really appriciated te 4 days off during the week, that allowed me to go down and visit my brother and actually spend some time and make it to the beach this summer.

So i was dating this girl named Mandy for the past 6 weeks or so. I say was cause i sorta ended it on friday. It didn't really end so much as fizzle. Pretty much i started to be my boring unmotivated self and our relationship as a consequence became boring. its kind of annoying though, cause she's still like my best friend in town and my favorite person to spend time with, even though we have practically nothing in common. except we both like the same kinds of books (fantasy scifi) and we both like the similar tv shows (actually, just firefly as far as i know). I think my mom is in shock about us spliting up, i think she was just starting to get used to the idea.

i got laid off a week ago, and its been nice not having to work this weekend, although to be honest i kinda don't have any clue what to do with myself, because usually i spend all my time with mandy and now that we aren't dating AND i'm not working, i have alot of free time and not much of a clue as what to do. plus my other friend went off to go firefighting, and i really really didn't feel like droping everything to go do that.

i've applied for EI and am going to try to get them to pay for me to take a Heavy Equipment Operators course. I figure if i want to go back to school that would be a good way for me to pay for my schooling during hte summer, since operators are in higher demand than just plain labourers, plus i would find the job less shitty than being that 'dude with a shovel'. And if i don't go back to school it woudl be a good way to pay of some student loans until i can get the pilot thing going, or goto the airforce or whatever.

I'm still waiting on the airforce to give me my security clearance, but its kind of annoying, cause in truth i dont' really agree with canada's continued pressence and mission in afganistan, and quite frankly i dont' want to get killed by suicide bombers or american 'friendly' fire, so thats a little sketchy.

but what is reallycool, is my moms boyfriend has a friend who owns a plane, and that friend took me up in his plane for like an hour long flying lesson, and i got to take off the plane and do some turns and it was friggin rad man. friggin awesome. plus we spent an hour on the ground where he showed me what all the different buttons are for and what all the different parts of the plane do, and stuff, and it was neato. so i feel really blessed about that and the time i spent up in the air really just confirmed for me that what i really want to do is be a pilot. If i could get EI to pay for my pilots liscence that would be friggin awesome, but i'm pretty sure they only pay for shorter courses that force you to go work in the oil patch and be miserable.

anyways, long time no update.
i'm thinking of going to the coast to visit my brother this week, to get away from bland forks for a while.